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-as sweet, as beautiful as when I held her become a part of any family, or mingle in in these arms!” And she clasped her arms that world whose bitter cup she had drained together on her breast as if indeed she held in agony. Desolation, despair like hers, her to that home of sorrow. “Oh! often demand self-sacrifice, physical exertion, to have I entreated her to come to me before; counterbalance their weight and pressure ; but never until now has she obeyed my earn- and it was for a life of this sort that she preest summons. I told her that if she would pared herself in the deep retirement of the lay her sweet hand on my brow-speak to cloister. Here she meditated much and me-smile on me once more—the dark chain deeply on the beauty and the majesty of the would be loosened that coiled around my religion she had chosen—its soothing severity brain, and all the thoughts so long captive (if such an expression may be permitted), its there be set free from their prison house. deep and enthusiastic self-abnegation-and It was long before my prayer was answered. found her only consolation in such thoughts. At last she came, with her long white float From the calm retirement of that convent ing garments, her folded plumes; and there she addressed letters to Bernard St. Mar and seemed to breath out from her presence un- his sister Theresa-giving to each a faithful utterable peace and joy. Thrice she said to and unvarnished history of her life, from the me: “Mother, take comfort: I am blessed.' | time of her private marriage and fatal deviaAnd she hath promised to come again.” tion from truth and duty, to the hour of her
Then was Mrs. Forrester aware that all fearful affliction and terrible despair. I will the while that dark lethargy and stupor of give one extract only from the letter to the the senses prevailed over the whole outward former: being of Helen, her fettered and wounded “Seek not to find me," she said toward the spirit had been engaged in its darkness with conclusion of that long and tear-blotted comone awful and unutterable image. This munication, “or, from any sudden impulse, aberration of her 'mind—if such indeed it to trace my steps. Poor, friendless as I came were-was the only symptom of her disease to you, I depart, to walk through life alone. that remained with Helen. Never again, My very name, my very existence, will be never was the name of Eudora unnecessarily changed and merged from the knowledge of spoken to human ears by her bereaved all who knew me. Profit by your freedom mother. She retained not one garment, one to lead a purer life, to seek a fitter comrelic that had belonged to her-nothing but panion; and know that as long as my heart one long curl of dark silken hair, which was continues to beat, its fervent prayers shall worn in her bosom in sleeping or waking. ascend for you and yours.”
But during their short sojourn together, Her farewell was eternal, and to the letter Mrs. Forrester remarked not unfrequently she received no reply. The letters were both that in the midst of conversation or com- dispatched to Carolina-that to her husband monplace occupations, a sudden rapture first, as she believed it indeed the intention would seem to possess her; and at such of St. Mar to join her there. She was mistimes, in the fullness of her faith in the taken: the letter reached him in England, power of love to survive the grave, she be- whither it was sent by his sister, who had lieved the angel child was revealed to the received his direction, together with a demand earthly mother.
for a considerable remittance-with which As soon as Helen had recovered sufficiently she had the generosity to comply. from the debility consequent on her long and It aroused, for a time, in his breast a sense severe illness, she left the residence of Lady of shame, sorrow, and remorse, that, howDartmore, and retired, temporarily, into the ever, excited no lasting effect over his vain convent of St. Genevieve, situated near Flor- and frivolous character. He was free at last, ence. She deemed it indelicate to remain, and bastened to take advantage of his freecircumstanced as she was, under the same dom. roof with Captain Sedley and his sister; and Dying before the receipt of Helen's letter Lady Dartmore-to whom all had been ex- of explanation, and understanding perfectly plained confidentially-loved her too well, the helpless position in which she was placed and pitied her too sincerely, to wish her to by her husband's condition, Theresa St. Mar, do violence to her feelings.
with a noble friendship, secured to her the Never again (she felt so then) could she revenues of half her estate during her life;
at the expiration of which the slaves on her charity. It was thus she revealed to them rice plantation were to be manumitted and, her design. They had not dreamed of it bewith means provided elsewhere for them and fore. held securely in trust, transported to Liberia, No emotion, no embarrassment of any and there comfortably established.
kind, marked her meeting with Arthur SedThis bequest, which was absolute, no way ley; in her manner all was cold, calm, serene affected the resolution of Helen to lead a life as the grave whose atmosphere breathed of humility, self-sacrifice, and atonement. around her; but many moments elapsed She had never beheld Captain Sedley since before he could speak in answer to her saluthe death of her child. She now desired to tation. meet him, and wrote to the Countess Clare, “I have sent for you, Captain Sedley, as expressing a wish that on the following day the only person to whom I could appeal in at sunset she would come with her brother the transaction of some business, important to the convent. The summons was promptly not to me alone, but to nearly a hundred huobeyed.
man beings and fellow-creatures. This letThe gardens of the convent were large ter will explain to you my meaning.” And and very beautiful. The building had been she gave him that containing the bequest of erected on the site of an ancient temple, and Theresa St. Mar. “I would ask of you to there still remained a few of the ruins of see its injunctions obeyed, as though I were that olden fane in one of the shaded avenues really dead. To the world I am so. I rethat branched away from the monastery. It linquish my share in this bequest, and ask to was among these ruins that, by the request have its provisions instantly fulfilled. The of Helen, Captain Sedley and his sister trustee for the slave fund will gladly coöpeawaited her approach-the former with feel rate with you.” ings of inexpressible agitation, but in the He read the letter attentively, and Helen breast of Mrs. Forrester all was peace and could not but remark, even in her melanquiet serenity. It was sunset and it seemed choly, abstraction, the excessive emotion to her the sky had something more than which shook him in every limb. beautiful about its gorgeous coloring. Like “Keep
it," she said
, “ as a matter of refermany who have known sorrow and disap- ence,” as he offered her the letter in return; pointment, she was keenly alive to the influ- “and, if you can, forgive me as you would ences of nature in all its moods. The gay, the dead. To the world I am lost forever.” the happy, are but little affected either by the “I have already done so most freely," he joy or gloom of mere weather
replied in a choked and broken voice; and
turning away he paced the avenue for a mo“They bring the summer with them;"
ment or two in a paroxysm of inexpressible but how darkly the low, rainy sky seems to agitation. He returned and stood before her close over the heart which owes every ray of silently again, and she continued her monotjoy to external circumstances, and which onous speech : looks within only to behold regret, sorrow, “Much have you suffered-much have you depression, too many sufferers can declare. sacrificed for me; and this consciousness has
As I have said, the influence of that beau- urged me, on the principle common to the tiful evening was keenly felt by Mrs. Forres- selfish and dependent, to ask of you still ter; and something like hope that a better further services — still further sacrifices. fate still awaited the unhappy Helen-of Say, will you grant or refuse me the boon I which the gorgeous sunset might seem a fit- ask?" ting emblem-filled her heart and escaped “There is nothing that I would refuse you her lips. She spoke of this, and the brother -nothing which hand or heart could accomand sister sat for a space gazing on the glow- plish,” he responded. ing clouds, unconscious of the presence of "And you, Helen? What is your destinaher who filled their thoughts. Suddenly tion ?" asked the Countess Clare. they beheld her standing in strange and mar • "I know not yet,” was the reply. “The ble pallor before them, relieved against the church has promised to send me where I can evening sky. She wore the robe of black be of use. I have solicited a mission to some serge, the plain white cap, the crucifix, the portion of the world, subject to the visitascallop-shell, the close-cut hair, of a sister of tions of yellow fever.”
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Captain Sedley started.
Dartmore, in which the latter urged again "Nay! this is madness,” he exclaimed- her earnest wish, that she would dwell with “suicide."
her after a year of seclusion. It might not “ You may not know that I have bad yel-be; and they parted as friends who part forlow fever,” she said, smiling faintly; "and I ever. have faith in the perfect exemption from this No light and worldly promise was that of disease of those who have once experienced Captain Sedley-forgot as soon as spoken, or, it. I am sure I shall never suffer from it at best, fulfilled by proxy. In person did this more; and I can not think of any sphere of disinterested man and his noble sister cross life in which I could be half so useful-yes, the wide waters and perform to the letter the and so well satisfied. Leisure would destroy injunctions of Theresa St. Mar, for the sake me."
of Helen and humanity, with the cheerful They strove not to dissuade her. They coöperation of the trustee of the slave fund. saw that she was determined, and both were Loaded with the blessings of these creatures, of the belief that the instincts of grief are they returned to England, and dwelt together sacred. They parted from Helen as friends in the land of their adoption in the peace part from the serene and beloved dead—with and prosperity their noble virtues merited. long clinging looks of affection-with bless. But there was rarely a day in which they ings—with tears—with prayers for a reünion did not think and speak of Helen Grey; so in that far holy land where all is peace and that her memory remained green in their permanence.
bosoms as that of the beloved dead. Helen had a later interview with Lady
(TO BE CONTINUED.)
FIELD AND CAMP;
OR, THE RECORDED FACTS OF AN EYE-WITNESS TO NUMEROUS IMPORTANT EVENTS AND OCCURRENCES,
BOTH IN FIELD AND CAMP, DURING THE LATE FOUR YEARS' WAR.
said the other. “Well, look there,” was the On reaching the front, I pulled off my sad- reply. I looked also. There were two dead dle, and spreading the blanket in a fence- Yankees lying close to the fence. They had corner, laid down to sleep, having first direct- been killed by shells, and were badly blown ed that a sentinel should be placed to wake to pieces. One had his breast torn open, and me should any thing important occur during the greater portion of the liver was hanging the night. It was daylight when I awoke, out. Two or three hogs were at work on it, and it was raining hard. Some one had tearing it to pieces and eating away with covered me up with an India rubber cloth, great satisfaction. and carefully tucked some blankets around An order came during the morning for me me to keep off the wet. I asked the Lieutenant to join General Hood at the Henry House. who did it. He replied: "Some of our boys, I found him standing by a little fire near sir. They said they would not let their Ma- some straw stacks. He invited me to stay jor lie there and get wet.”
and take breakfast with him: it consisted I was very tired, and as all was quiet, laid of some roasted corn. still. Presently I heard one of the men re We remained on the battle field all the mark to another : “Do you believe a hog morning—the men being employed burying would eat a dead Yankee ?” “No, I don't," the dead, while the cavalry were busy bringing
in prisoners. I saw nearly a brigade brought marked this to some one near, and said I in at one time. Among the whole of them believed the man was alive. “Yes," said one I did not see a single officer. I remarked of the ambulance corps, “he is alive and in this to the officer in charge, who said that as his senses. I have been talking to him." soon as captured, they had removed all in- This seemed incredible. The whole side of signia of rank from their uniforms, and de- the skull was gone, and the brain from the nied being officers. They had done this be- forehead to the back of the head exposed, cause General Lee had declared he would and yet the man was not insensible! I not parole officers.
heard him ask to be removed a little, that the On Sunday morning a long passenger train sun might not shine in his face.
A man came up the Manassas road from Alexandria, similarly wounded on another part of the filled with citizen Yankees, decked out in field, ran some distance, and approaching their best clothes, and, no doubt, anticipating Col. Liddell, called to him wildly: “Where a delightful Sunday excursion-for the pur is the woods ?”—continuing to repeat it, until pose of seeing the rebels run! Much to their he was shot down by some of his own men surprise, General Stuart captured the whole (the Yankees). of them, and somewhat spoiled their sport. In another place I saw a Yankee kneeling About twelve o'clock, I saw the cavalry near a ditch bank. His body was perfectly trotting them up the Warrenton Turnpike. erect, with one hand resting on the bank in As the passed by they made a dismal attempt front of him. All who saw him, at first to smile, calling out to us : " You see, it is on thought him alive; but, on approaching him, to Richmond !” They were mostly dressed he was found stone dead. Several officers in black, which brought out their white told me they had, on another part of the. shirts in bold relief, contrasting them strongly field, seen a man sitting upright on a caisson, with our dirty, ragged crowd. This suggest perfectly dead. Men killed advancing to a ed the idea to one of the men that they charge, or standing in line of battle, are allooked like bald-face horses; and he called most invariably found lying on their backs; to his comrades, asking if they did not think those killed while running, are always found
His sally was met with a shout of with their faces downward. In numbers of laughter.
cases, where death is instantaneous, the musDuring the day I rode over a large portion cles do not seem to relax, but become rigid of the field. Details were engaged in every in the attitude in which death happens direction burying the dead. In many places to find them. It is very common to see the the bodies had been collected in piles; and, arms extended as if in the act of striking or generally, a pit or trench was dug in which pulling trigger, or raised as if to ward off a they were laid side by side. They were all blow. buried without coffins, only some few being Late in the evening we received orders to rolled up in their blankets—the rest without move forward. Every body was pleased at any thing around them. I could not help this, as the battle field was becoming exceedfeeling shocked as I saw the detail roll the ingly offensive. We marched but a short earth down into the pale, wasted faces of the distance, and bivouacked on Bull Run, near dead after they had laid them in the little Sudley Mills. The enemy had made a stand shallow trench which was to serve them for at Centerville; and we were moving to the & grave. In some places there was not even left for the purpose of turning them. The a trench or pit dug, but the bodies were col- next day, Monday, we moved early, and lected together and the earth heaped up over crossing Bull Run, marched along by-roads them. In one place I saw a large number across the country to Pleasant Valley, on the of our officers collected together for burial. Little River turnpike. Turning down this, They were laid in a row side by side, many we marched directly toward Germantown. of them looking as if they were only asleep, A thundergust passed, and for a while it while on the faces of some a sad smile still rained quite hard. The firing had already lingered.
commenced, and Jackson's corps was pressIn another place I saw a Yankee with the ing the enemy. As we reached the field, the whole right side of his skull shot away. clouds suddenly broke away; and a bright While pausing to look at him a moment, I rainbow spanned the eastern sky. Some one thought I saw him move his hand. I re- / said: “Behold the bow of promise.”' We
on; and soon the enemy were report and were evacuating the city. The wildest ed retiring; and orders came for us to halt excitement prevailed among the men. Parand bivouac in line of battle where we were. ties of officers and men were collected in The infantry were engaged, but our artillery every direction, talking together, and the one did not participate in the fight. We had subject of conversation was the anticipated captured Centerville during the day with all occupation of the Yankee capital. Some the stores deposited there, and a number of went so far as to invite their friends to variprisoners; the enemy falling back to “Ox ous entertainments, when we should reach Hill,” where he next attempted to make a there, while others selected, in prospection, stand. That night, he retreated rapidly to the quarters they intended to occupy. A ward the Potomac; and when morning cavalry officer came by, telling us he had dawned, what was left of his army was been within a mile or two of the Long Bridge, safely ensconced behind the fortifications of and had seen the enemy withdrawing their Alexandria and Washington! In less than guns from Arlington Hights; then another one month from the day we left Richmond, told us that a flag of truce had just come in we had beaten the enemy in four great bat- with an offer from the enemy to surrender. tles—had compelled him to retreat, in utter The men all believed this religiously, and it confusion, behind the fortifications of his only hightened their expectations. After a own capital, from which, but recently, he had while, an ambulance, with a pair of gray marched forth, breathing out threatenings of horses, drove up and halted near the head of “ fire and sword” against the South, and our column. It was General Lee, who, promising to end the rebellion in sixty days. from a slight accident received at Manassas,
Just before dark an ambulance came up was unable to ride on borseback, and still and deposited a dead man in a house pear had his arm in a sling. A number of genby. He proved to be Major-General Phil. eral officers collected around the ambulance Kearny, U.S.A. During the fight he had and talked for some time earnestly together; accidently ridden on one of our regiments, then they dispersed, and the ambulance when the men called out to him to surrender. drove off. After waiting for an hour or so Disregarding this, he suddenly wheeled his longer, orders came for us to about face and horse about and attempted to gallop off, march back to Leesburg. In all my life I when he was shot, and died almost immedi- never saw such disappointment as this order ately. He had lost an arm in Mexico—was stamped upon the faces of the men. Silenta large, handsome man, and as he lay there ly and sullenly they shouldered their arms buttoned up in his uniform, presented a and commenced moving back. For hours splendid specimen of physical strength. Our scarcely a word was uttered. Then I heard men, of course, crowded around to see a a man say to another: “Well, if old Mars Yankee general. One poor, ragged, bare- Bob (General Lee) says move back, it is all footed fellow cast a longing look at the fine right. He knows what he is about.” This was cavalry boots he had on, remarking, as he repeated from rank to rank; the smile once did so: “Number nines—just fit me;" and more came back to their bronzed faces, and turned away, no doubt thinking it a great the rest of the day they moved on cheerfully. hardship, that he was not permitted to ap- Late that night, we encamped on Goose propriate them to his own use.
Creek, near Leesburg. The next day a genThe next morning we moved over to the eral inspection of transportation and artilLeesburg road, and marched rapidly down it lery was held; and then the order came for in the direction of Washington, halting that us to march again. We now learned that night near Dranesville. All sorts of wild we were going into Maryland. The news, rumors were rife in the camp-the most however, did not awaken any enthusiasm prominent of which was, that the next morn- among the men. As we passed through ing we would move on Washington—and Leesburg, we met a number of barefooted every body was in a feverish state of excitemen, who seemed rather pleased to be sent ment. The next day at dawn we were to the rear. They called out to us as they again in motion, marching toward the great passed, that they were going back to a blackMecca of our hopes. About 11 A. M. we smith shop to get shod. suddenly halted. News came from the front At 11 P. M. we halted near White's Ford, that the enemy had burned the Chain Bridge | some four miles from Leesburg. The next