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prefenting that he could live no longer without me. As I could learn little more, and as I longed as paffionately to be in his arms as he could defire to be in mine, about four or five days before the last time you faw me, I wrote him, fignifying, I would fet out on my journey homeward in a few days; and in my next would name the precife day. I at the fame time wrote my honoured mother my intention of returning, and defiring her to provide me proper female cloaths of every fort, giving her the best description I could of my perfon, as a model for making them; and hinted my defign of marrying my coufin immediately. About that time Mr M, who fometimes vifited me, told me, that he had feveral times gone to fee Mr Ts of late, and was highly inftructed by his religious converfation, and earneftly preffed me to vifit the dying youth. I accordingly fixed that memorable day, and Mr M- accompanied me to and from his room. I was extremely delighted with his long difcourfe, and the pathetic exhortations therein given, bleffing God for fo remarkable an inftance of the efficacy of divine grace. From that moment I refolved to return inftantly home. I regretted I ever had any acquaintance with his companions, or ever witneffed any of their lewd fcenes, which were most abominable to me, though I had had never any acquaintance with them but through Mr. T-s. I began to be ashamed of difguifing my fex, a piece of conduct which I dare not now ju ftify; as the practice of it, were it to become common, would neceffarily be very pernicious to the interests of virtue and chastity. I also reflected, that I was dealing injuriously by my worthy husband, whofe tender affection to me, and his anxiety to have me in his arms, were pathetically delineated in every letter. I therefore determined Bba

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that night directly to return to my lovely husband. 1 accordingly wrote him a very affectionate letter, in answer to one I had received from him that day, informing him, that my tender love and regard to him would not permit me to stay any longer from him; that I would begin my journey next morning; and, if health permitted, I expected to reach a town I named the third day after; defiring him to meet me there, and to entreat my honoured parents to accompany him, with proper cloaths for me. Accordingly next day I went off very abruptly, and, by the favour of Providence, reached the place of my destination by fix in the evening. A few minutes after, my dear parents and husband arrived, and received me with tranfports of joy. My mother had brought all forts of female apparel for me, and next morning dreffed me in my new attire; in which indeed I made but a very awkward appearance, but with which my husband was extremely delighted. As he had explained the whole tranfaction to my parents, who cheerfully confented, a licence was obtained, we were married that day, and our marriage was confummated at night. Next day, after breakfaft, we fer out for my father's feat, where we arrived a little before noon. I was joyfully received by all my brothers, fifters, and other relations, who were affembled on this occafion, they not having feen me for eleven years. After paffing a few days at my father's feat, we came to this houfe, where we have almost conftantly refided ever fince, bleffed in one another's company and converfation. I have born him the three pretty children you faw at table, and I am happy in them. I have endeavoured to repair the want of a female education by a dili gent application, and can now perform every piece of women's work as well as if I had learned

it in my younger years. A female dress, however, by long difufe, is ftill irksome to me; and I make but an awkward appearance in it: but I endeavour to keep myself neat and clean, to please my dear husband, loving him, and being tenderly beloved by him. In fome journeys I have made with him, by his permiflion, and for eafe and convenience, I have put on my manly drefs; and once I attended him to London in that garb, but threw it off on my return.

"As to the girl in the house where I lodged in Imuft inform you, that I never had any other apartment in that place. The landlady was an old woman, who spent her whole time in reading and devotion. The maid had been with her for about a twelvemonth before I came to the house. As fhe appeared to be a fenfible and religious girl, I foon became very intimate with her, and would fometimes converfe an hour or two with her in an evening. She told me he was about twenty-two years of age when I came to the houfe; that he was the daughter of a countryclergyman, who died in her infancy, leaving her mother a poor widow; that her mother also dying a short while after, the was reduced to great want, but educated by a diftant relation; on whofe death fhe was obliged to betake herself to fervice. She was a genteel pretty girl, and always dreffed very neatly. There was fomething very amiable in her looks and behaviour, which engaged my attention to her. She spent most part of her time in fpinning and fewing, and acted very faithfully to her miftrefs. It was her conftant custom to rife very early and fit up very late, to read the Bible and religious books. To try her, I one evening asked her very gravely, if fhe knew any thing of the paffion of love, or had a fuitor. She very modeftly replied, that the neBb 3

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ver had been in love, nor had any young man courted her; that he was acquainted with very few people in that city, and seldom went abroad; that he was afraid of men, who often, under the pretence of love, had base defigns upon innocent, unthinking girls. She then told me, that a gentleman who lodged in my room for fome months before I came to it, had made feveral attacks upon her, by fair promises, wanton fpeeches, offers of money, endeavouring to kiss her, and being guilty of fome acts of indecency and rudeness; that the highly refented his conduct, and argued with him as to the evil of fuch practices, but to little purpofe; fcarce a day paffing but the was plagued by him. The last time was one night when her miftrefs was abroad. As the had been for some time past in use to have his bed made, fire lighted, and flippers placed by the bed-fide, fhe had that night forgot to draw the curtains clofe. He came in, and, finding her miftrefs was abroad, immediately called her. She had no fooner got into the room, than he bolted the door; and as he began to draw the curtains, laid hold of her, and threw her on the bed, ufing her very rudely and indecently. She now concluded fhe would be ruined beyond recovery; the however ftruggled, and cried aloud till fhe was ready to faint. When by his fuperior ftrength, and putting a handkerchief to her mouth, to prevent her crying, he had almoft effected his purpofe, they heard a loud knocking at the door; upon which he let her go, faying, Speak not a word of what has happened, or it fhall fare worfe with you. She found her mistress at the door, whom the confidered as one fent from heaven for her deliverance. Next morning, when she went into the gentleman's room, to light his fire, fhe told him, that as he had of late fuffered a series of base and

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indecent ufage from him, fhe was refolved not to expose herself to the like treatment for the future, but would inform her miftrefs of his ungentlemanny behaviour, and defire her either to difmifs him, or provide another fervant. "For," added fhe, I plainly perceive you are bent upon my ruin, and that nothing will fatisfy you bur robbing me of my virgin-honour. Be affured, Sir, that I never will proftitute my chastity to you, or to any other man whatever. I fear God; and will never defile myfelf with impure embra ces." The gentleman then owned he had behaved very bafely and fhamefully toward hers." I am forry for what I have done," added he; "I find you are a modest girl; and, upon my honour, believe me, I will tempt you no more. And, as an evidence thereof, I make you a prefent of these five guineas, which I give you as a reward of your virtue; and I think you deferve them much better than if you had complied with my vile purposes. Mally," continued he, "as you are a handfome girl, I advise you to be on your guard against young men, especially thofe of higher ftation than yourfelf, and fly from them whenever they begin to talk of love. Your fafety lies, not fo much in refifting and arguing, as in making a fpeedy retreat." I thanked him for his present and good advice; and told him, I hoped he would obferve his promise faithfully. He did fo, and behaved afterwards to me in a very civil and complaifant manner; and, at his departure, gave me three guineas more, with good advice." But, continued I, "Mally, it is impoffible but a girl of your age must have fome defires to our fex, which will excite in you an inclination to a change of your ftate, as, I dare fay, you would not chufe to live and die an old maid."" No doubt, Sis," "replied fhe,

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