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you receive it, I shall have put off inortality, I shall have obtained dominion over the king of terrors, and the sting of death ; I shall be wafted to heaven, that region of unfading pleasures and endlets joys, and be exulting in the enjoyment of all the bliss whicb poffeffith that verdant paradise of God, and fic under the shadow of the tree of life for ever,

To God and to the word of his grace, I recommend my dear sister, her destined bulband, her honoured parents, her brothers and fifters, and her dearly beloved Charlotte C-m, and all her relations. Giace be with



Your affe&tionate dying brother,

J. T-s.

After my dear friend had finished the above letter, he faid, “ I am greatly fatigued with so much writing; and think I shall write no more in this world. I have discharged my duty to all who are most nearly related to me; and I have done with the world, and all its concerns. My time henceforth must be spent in meditation and prayer, with reading the word of God, which will now be my principal food, and the rejoicing of my

heart. I lament that I am not better aca quainted with that sacred volume, which is full of God and Chrift, and is a rich' mine which can never be exhausted by the most laborious digging. Lord, open my heart to understand the Icrip


Laden with guilt, änd

full of fears, I fly to thee, my Lord, And not a glimpse of hope appears,

But in iby written word.


The vo'ume of my Father's grace

Does all my grief assuage :
Here I behold my Saviour's face

Almost in every page.
This is the field where hidden lies

The pearl of price unknown ;
That merchant is divinely wise,

Who makes the pearl his own.
Here consecrated water flows,

To quench my thirst of fin;
Here the fair tree of knowledge grows,

Nor danger dwells therein.
This is the judge that ends the strife,

Where wit and reason fail ;
My guide to everlasting life,

Through all this gloomy vale,
Oh! may thy counsels, mighty God,

My roving feet command;
Nor I forsake the happy road

That leads to thy right hand. Having two days before received a letter from my fteward in the country, I wrote an answer to it this afternoon, and carried it myself to the postoffice, being glad to enjoy a little of the air, a benefit from which my close attendance on Mr T-s had for some time excluded me. I did not stay abroad above half an hour. When I re- . turned, I listened at the room door, to fee if any body had come in to him. He then began the following prayer, which I noted down, as he spake so as I could distinctly hear him.

O glorious and gracious Jehovah, thou art my God and Father, my Saviour and Redeemer. Vouchsafe me thy grace and Spirit, to comfort and support me amidst the pains and distresses of my body, and in the struggle I shall soon have



with death. Time is fast flying from me, and e. ternity posting towards me with a speedy pace. Thou art the fole arbiter of times and feasons ; thou hast numbered my days; and when the hour which thou haft set to my life arrives, my soul must leave its prefent habitation, and remove into the world of eternity. When that day comes, as soon it will, may I die in the Lord; may thy angels convey my soul into. Abraham's bosom ; and may I be with my lovely Lord Jesus in Paradife, as he said unto the penitent thief in the agonies of his crucifixion. There is nothing in the world to court my stay, or invite my coatinuance here. The world lieth in wickedness, and at beft is but a vain show, a valley of tears, a fear of miseries, a land of sorrows and disappointments. O, disengage my heart from its vanities, and attach it to the glory and felicity of the land of joy be. yond the Jordan of death. There is no happiness to be found in this foreign land; but felicity dwells in Immanuel's land, fresh and blooming, unmixed with forrow and pain, and not allayed by uneasiness or toil. O Lord, I long to be there, that I may be ravished with thy love, and fatis fied with the light of thy countenance. But I have the deep river of death ro pafs through, and nature recoils at the unknown passage. But be thou with me in that tempestuous ocean, and let thy comforts delight my foul. May thy prefence' go with me, and thy promises support me; take me by the hand; and I shall, with joy, bid adieu to all earthly delights, and, with the utmost fatisfaction, enter into the world of spirits ; that. I may be ever with the Lord, to behold' his glory unvailed. I defire, O Lord my God, to wait in hope till my change comes. Till then, © my God, uphold me by, thy grace; and as my outward man decays, let my inward man


be proportionably renewed. Let me daily receive fresh supplies of thy grace, and new tokens of thy love. Strengthen my faith, revive my hope, increase humility and self-denial, give patience and submission amidst the distresses of a consuming carcase, and gradually prepare me for the heavenly mount Zion. Let thy word be a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path; may I love thy law, and may it be the subject of my meditation night and day. O make thy face to thine upon me, and deliver me from all my transgret fions. Weaken the power of fin and Satan, of unbelief and corruption, within me, uniil I ob. tain a complete victory, through him that loved me. While I am in the body, enable me to glorify thy name, to keep thy commandments, and celebrate the praises of redeeming love and grace. As I have greatly dishonoured thee in the days of health, by engaging in the service of fia and Satan, and promoting the interest of the prince of darkness ; 0, let me now be a witness for God, and give zeal and courage to advance thy interest Accept graciously, through Christ, what faint efe says I have made for vindicating thy honour, and recommending thy good ways to the wicked and profane; and bless my endeavours for reclaiming my once debauched companions. O Lord, thou who haft convinced me of fin, and betrothed me unto thee in righteousness, convince these lewd and wicked young men of the evil and hazard of those flagitious ways in which they walk. O fhoot the sharp arrows of conviction into their fouls, and pierce them to the very quick." Pluck them as brands out of the burning, and magnify thy sovereign mercy in saving them from all their horrid trespasses. 'Quicken the dead, enlighten the blind, instruct the ignorant, cleanse the polluted, and render them every one wise unto salvation. I


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lcave them in thy hand, I commit them unto thee. Save and redeem them for thy name's fake. O moft merciful Father, bless and guide my dear friend, whom I perverted unto impiety, and whom thou hast in great mercy recovered from the snare of the devil and his own lufts. O deal graciously with him, manifest the knowledge of thy name more and more to him, and enlighten his mind with the knowledge of Christ, May he live under the guidance of thy Spirit, growing in grace, and improving in acquaintance with thy blessed word and ways.

Let him be built on the Rock of ages, have his dwelling under the shadow of thy wings, and receive the end of his faith, the falvation of his soul. Extend thy mer. cy also, O Lord, unto the other young man, upon whom thy word seems to have had some effect. O let him experience a faving work indeed upon his soul, pay homage to the grace and righteousness of the adcrable Redeemer, and take delight in thy word which formerly be ridiculed. May he become a Christian indeed; and evidence his love to the Lord Jesus, by á faithful adherence to the faith of the gospel, and the tefti. mony of Christ. Perfect what concerns him, and preserve him to thy glory.

O Lord my God, leave me not; with-bold not the smiles of thy countenance, nor eclipse the light of thy bleffed face ; for thou knoweft that I cannot live without thee. Rebuke the en. mity, pride, and unbelief of niy heart, and make me to long for thy falvation. May I, like the righteous, hold on in my way, and, with the man of clean hands, wax stronger and stronger, May my light be like that of the just, which ihi. neth more and more unto the perfect day. O Lord, haften thy glorious appearances for extending thy kingdom and interest in the world; en


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