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ment, and that he would best recover himself by retiring from her chamber.

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"As her father left the room her mind was in the act of worship, as if to regain the composure which had been shaken, and which she feared to lose, waiting as she was for the hourly appearance of her Saviour. "Now,' she said, alluding to these interviews with her family, the bitterness of death is past!' Lord, I have waited for thy salvation. Now, Lord, lettest thou thy servant depart in peace, for mine eyes have seen thy salvation.' Her thoughts were soon restored to rest on their chosen centre, and they were evidently wrapt in joyful anticipations of eternal blessedness! O heaven, heaven, heaven!' she exclaimed, O the moment that will succeed to death!'

"Her pains increasing on her, she repeated the following lines, to which she was partial, with a most gentle and resigned voice :—

"I would not contend with thy will
Whatever that will may decree;

But oh may each trial I feel,
Unite me more firmly to Thee!

'Tis better to suffer and die

Beneath thy compassionate rod,
Than find my enjoyments run high,

But never have thee for my God."

The last moments of Martha were those of a dying Christian. She had committed her soul into the hands of her Redeemer, and she lifted up her eyes with joy, knowing that her redemption was fast drawing nigh. Some of her sayings may be quoted as illustrative of her eelings when about to enter the dark valley.

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"Her friend remarked, ' A Christian has comparatively little to fear." Ah, my dear,' she replied quickly, that is because you do not know what it is to die! Death, at the very best, is an awful thing, and nature shudders at it. But,' lifting her eyes to heaven, I will fear no evil; Thou art indeed with me -Thou wilt bring me safely through! O my Saviour,' she prayed in strong agony, thou art full of compassion! Take me from this state of suffering, or give me patience to wait and bear it!' It was remarked, 'That it was a great blessing rather to desire death than to dread it.' 6 'Ah,' she replied, there is my danger! I fear I may desire it too much, and so become impatient. I would not wish for any thing, only that God may be glorified in my suffering, or in my dying.'

"From this time she was not heard to utter one desire for her deliverance, however submissively; only that faith and patience might be granted.

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O pray for me-pray for me, that I may trust in God-simply trust in him. There is nothing like a simple dependence on the Saviour as a sinner-nothing but a sinner! I never before felt the meaning of those words which the Saviour uttered, My soul is exceeding sorrowful even unto death.' Ah! exceedingly sorrowful, and very heavy. I never before saw its meaning-sorrowful and very heavy: I understand it, but I cannot tell you any thing about it-very heavy! And we feel,' I said, my dear, all the benefit of the Saviour's sorrows.' 'So oppressive were his sorrows,' she continued, still dwelling on the words, that it was necessary to send an angel from heaven to strengthen him.'

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And,' I observed, they are all ministering spirits to the heirs of salvation.' 'Yes, they are!' she replied with earnestness, dwelling on it for some time, and then continuing:- Brother! notwithstanding all my affliction, I am happy. I have no wants-no fears! I had, indeed, a hard struggle to give up life without having done something more for my Saviour. I wished, had it been his will, to live to be useful; but now his will is my will. My soul doth magnify the Lord, and rejoice, yea, exceedingly rejoice, in his salvation! It is enough-quite enough! Now, Lord, lettest thou thy servant depart in peace, for mine eyes have beheld thy salvation!"'

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"O brother, my soul is in bitterness-such pain! But the Lord is righteous-He is good.' Yes, my dear, good when he gives, supremely good.' Nor less,' she replied, taking up the words, nor less when he denies.' And yet,' she continued, it is mysterious, is it not? To think how easily dear Miss Weybridge was dismissed; just walking across the room, and then lying gently down to die! How different is my situation; But I am sustained-just sustained !' And will be sustained, my dear! and the more we are called to suffer, the more the strength of divine grace is manifested in supporting us; and the more, therefore, God is glorified in us.' Yes, brother! let God be glorified, whether by suffering, or life, or death!' O brother, I am so frail-so helpless-so very helpless! In these deep waters I often seem just like Peter, ready to sink; and, like him, I cry, 'Lord, save, or I perish!" 'But you did not, like him, challenge Providence.' 'No, no, brother; the Lord

brought me here, and he supports me, and will support me!' 'OI cannot sufficiently admire the Saviour, who, in such circumstances as his, could say, 'Not my will, but thine be done!' He was human as well as divine; he saw all his sufferings beforehand; and his sufferings were every way peculiar and inconceivable ; and he felt every thing as we do; and yet he said, 'not my will, but thine be done! Oh what resignation!""

She lingered till Sabbath the 16th of May 1821, when she quietly fell asleep in Jesus, and entered upon that everlasting rest which remaineth for the people of God. To her to live had been Christ, and to die was no doubt unspeakable gain.

MRS. HARRIET W. L. WINSLOW.

THIS devoted Christian female was born at Norwich, Connecticut, April 9, 1796. Her parents moved in a respectable rank in life, her father, Charles Lathrop, Esq., having been a graduate of Yale College. In early life Harriet Lathrop was chiefly remarkable for energy of character, a great perseverance, and a firmness of disposition approaching to obstinacy. This latter quality occasioned considerable annoyance to her friends for a time, but no sooner had she become a subject of divine grace than her temper was gradually moulded into that meek and gentle pliancy which the Christian evinces in matters not involving the sacrifice of sound scriptural principle. When she was no more than twelve years of age, her mind was first roused to a desire after the knowledge of divine truth; and such was the rapidity of her progress in the acquisition of this soul-satisfying and saving knowledge, that in the following year she was admitted into communion with the Church. At the same period, also, she wrote out, and solemnly subscribed a covenant-dedication of herself to the Lord; a practice which she found to be in the highest degree salutary, and therefore frequently renewed it throughout life.

At the age of fourteen Harriet was seized with a severe illness, which excited painful apprehensions in the minds of her parents, lest she should be taken

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