Of this poor, passionate, helpless bloodAnd then I lay, and spoke not: but He heard in heaven. So many Tuscan evenings passed the same. I could not lose a sunset on the bridge, And would not miss a vigil in the church, And liked to mingle with the outdoor crowd So strange and gay and ignorant of my face, For men you know not, are as good as trees. And only once, at the Santissima, I almost chanced upon a man I knew, Sir Blaise Delorme. He saw me certainly, And somewhat hurried, as he crossed himself, The smoothness of the action,-then half bowed, But only half, and merely to my shade, I slipped so quick behind the porphyry plinth And left him dubious if 'twas really I In England we were scarce acquaintances, That here in Florence he should keep With God so near me, could I sing of God! I did not write, nor read, nor even think, But sate absorbed amid the quickening glooms, Most like some passive broken lumpof salt Dropped in by chance to a bowl of oenomel, To spoil the drink a little and lose itself, Dissolving slowly, slowly, until lost. EIGHTH BOOK ONE eve it happened, when I sate alone, The drowsy silence of the exhausted day, And peeled a new fig from that purple heap In the grass beside her, turning out the red To feed her eager child (who sucked at it With vehement lips across a gap of air As he stood opposite, face and curls aflame With that last sun-ray, crying, 'give me, give,' And stamping with imperious baby-feet, We're all born princes) something startled me, The laugh of sad and innocent souls, that breaks Abruptly, as if frightened at itself. 'Twas Marian laughed. I saw her glance above In sudden shame that I should hear her laugh, And straightway dropped my eyes upon my book, And knew, the first time, 'twas Boccaccio's tale, The Falcon's, of the lover who for love Destroyed the best that loved him. Some of us Do it still, and then we sit and laugh no more. Laugh you, sweet Marian,-you've the right to laugh, Since God Himself is for you, and a child! In my ears For me there's somewhat less,-and so The sound of waters. There he stood, I sigh. The heavens were making room to hold the night, The sevenfold heavens unfolding all their gates To let the stars out slowly (prophesied In close-approaching advent, not discerned), While still the cue-owls from the cy presses Of the Poggio called and counted every pulse my king! I felt him, rather than beheld him. Up I rose, as if he were my king indeed, And then sate down, in trouble at myself, And struggling for my woman's empery. 'Tis pitiful; but women are so made: We'll die for you perhaps,-'tis probable; But we'll not spare you an inch of our full height: We'll have our whole just stature,-five feet four, Though laid out in our coffins: pitiful. Of the skyey palpitation. Gradually is here?' As some drowned city in some enchanted He answered in a voice which was not sea, Cut off from nature,-drawing you who gaze, With passionate desire, to leap and plunge And find a sea-king with a voice of waves, And treacherous soft eyes, and slippery locks his. 'I have her letter; you shall read it soon. But first, I must be heard a little, I, Who have waited long and travelled far for that, Although you thought to have shut a tedious book And farewell. Ah, you dog-eared such You cannot kiss but you shall bring away Did he touch my hand, Strikes ten, as if it struck ten fathoms Or but my sleeve? I trembled, hand down, and foot, He must have touched me.-'Will you sit?' I asked, And motioned to a chair; but down he A little slowly, as a man in doubt, chair Being wheeled upon the terrace. 'You are come, My cousin Romney?—this is wonderful. I signed above, where all the stars were out, As if an urgent heat had started there Methinks I have plunged, I see it all so A secret writing from a sombre page, clear.. And, O my heart, . . the sea-king! A blank, last moment, crowded suddenly Who soon shall rise in wrath and shake In fact I never knew her. 'Tis enough it clear), Came hither also, raking up our grape And olive-gardens with his tyrannous tusk, And rolling on our maize with all his swine.' That Vincent did, and therefore chose his wife For other reasons than those topaz eyes We've heard of. Not to undervalue them, For all that. One takes up the world with eyes.' 'You had the news from Vincent-Including Romney Leigh, I thought Carrington,' again, He echoed, picking up the phrase Albeit he knows them only by repute. Aye, strange; but only strange that good Lord Howe Preferred him to the post because of pauls. Of course I feel that, lonely among my vines, Where nothing's talked of, save the blight again, For me I'm sworn to never trust a man- And no more Chianti! Still the letter's use 'There were facts to tell, To smooth with eye and accent. Howe supposed .. Well, well, no matter! there was dubious need; You heard the news from Vincent Carrington. And yet perhaps you had been startled less To see me, dear Aurora, if you had read That letter.' -Now he sets me down as vexed. I think I've draped myself in woman's pride To a perfect purpose. Oh, I'm vexed, it seems! My friend Lord Howe deputes his friend To break as softly as a sparrow's egg As I've played mine. 'Dear Romney,' I began, 'You did not use, of old, to be so like A Greek king coming from a taken Troy, 'Twas needful that precursors spread your path With three-piled carpets, to receive your foot And dull the sound of 't. For myself, be sure, Although it frankly grinds the gravel here, Has twisted to a lighter absently And many a flower of London gossipry Has dropped wherever such a stem broke off. No more of women, 'spite of privilege, Than still to take account too seriously Of such weak flutterings? Why, we like it, sir, We get our powers and our effects that way: The trees stand stiff and still at time of frost, If no wind tears them; but, let summer come, When trees are happy,—and a breath avails To set them trembling through a million leaves In luxury of emotion. Something less It takes to move a woman: let her start And shake at pleasure,-nor conclude at yours, The winter's bitter,-but the summer's green.' He answered, 'Be the summer evergreen With you, Aurora !-though you sweep your sex With somewhat bitter gusts from where you live Above them,-whirling downward from your heights Your very own pine-cones, in a grand disdain Of the lowland burrs with which you scatter them. So high and cold to others and yourself, A little less to Romney were unjust, And thus, I would not have you. Let it pass: I feel content so. You can bear indeed My sudden step beside you: but for me, 'Twould move me sore to hear your softened voice,Aurora's voice,-if softened unaware In pity of what I am.' Ah, friend, I thought, As husband of the Lady Waldemar At which I interrupted my own thought And spoke out calmly. Let us ponder, friend, Whate'er our state we must have made it first; And though the thing displease us, aye, Displease us warrantably, never doubt and then Rejected by the instinct of our lives, 'She's well,' I answered. She was there in sight An hour back, but the night had drawn her home, Where still I heard her in an upper room, And slumber snatched at noon, was long In falling off, and took a score of songs And mother-hushes ere she saw him sound. 'She's well,' I answered. 'Here?' he asked. 'Yes, here.' 'That shall be He stopped and sighed. But now this must be. I have words to And would be alone to say them, I with Has stamped the honour of a patent act 'Speak then,' I returned, But, that we choose it, proves it good' She will not vex you.' for us Potentially, fantastically, now Or last year, rather than a thing we saw, And saw no need for choosing. Moths will burn Their wings, which proves that light is good for moths, Who else had flown not where they agonize.' At which, suddenly, 'You have read it, I replied, 'The rest is like the first,' 'Aye, light is good,' he echoed, and there | He answered,—' for the book is in my take no sign, she well?' He would heart, Lives in me, wakes in me, and dreams in me : My daily bread tastes of it,-and my wine Bitterly I took the word up; 'Never waste your But straight repeated, -Marian. Is And how it's foolish, feeble, and afraid, And all unworthy so much compliment. |