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my looking amidst my many and diversified calamities be to Him, in whose hand only is the breath of life.

8. My mind was preserved for the most part of the day, in a good degree of calmness and serenity; often remembering the gracious monition and declaration of the Lord Jesus to his immediate followers, "Ask, and it shall be given you: seek, and ye shall find: knock, and it shall be opened unto you for every one that asketh, receiveth; he that seeketh, findeth; and to him that knocketh, it shall be opened:" and now the Lord Jesus Christ is ascended on high, the power remains with him; and all the promises are in him, yea, and Amen for ever.

19. "Be ye therefore perfect, even as your. Father which is in heaven is perfect," Mat. v. 48. "Be ye holy, for I am holy," 1 Pet. i. 16. I was sincerely desirous to perfect "holiness in the fear of God;" difficulties and defects were not wanting, nevertheless, I hope some degree of victory was experienced, by and through Him, who that he might sanctify his people, suffered for them without the gate.

20. I came from Hartford to London pretty peaceably, with an unexpected increase of bodily strength.

23. I went to the Park meeting in trepidation of spirit, not having been in any place set apart for worship since the 28th day of the Tenth month; but I soon became measurably recollected by the

revival of an apostolic injunction, "Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you: resist the devil, and he will flee from you."

24. In the evening, I remembered the awful and stupendous preservations I have experienced from my youth to the present day; which have been of God, and not of man: may my mind be impressed with a proper sense of them, for the few hours which remain.

25. Being the day called Christmas day; very dark and cloudy in respect to weather, but rather placid within; for the most part of the day experiencing desires after the knowledge of the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom he hath sent ; neither was much condemnation attendant.

29. During the present week, I have not been without desires after that spiritual improvement which is by the grace of Christ; but my dear wife having been for the most part indisposed, anxieties have arisen, which have too much interrupted the fruits of that righteousness which are sown in peace.

30. Early in the Park meeting-house, the gracious promises to, and dealings with, the blind, the lame, the halt and the maimed, became the subject of my meditation, as a seed sown in weakness; according to the words which are written, viz. "I will bring the blind by a way that they knew not, I will lead them in paths that they have not known: I will make darkness light before them." The lame shall leap as an hart, the

tongue of the dumb shall sing, and in the wilderness streams shall break forth. Although the. stream was small, I hope some increase of the waters was experienced. Afterwards a short and well connected testimony was delivered by our friend A. C. I hope a favored season to myself and others.

31. On the commencement of the present year, I adopted in sincerity the petition of Jabez, "Keep me from evil that it may not grieve me." I then little expected to have been in the body at the close of the year, but the works and wonders of the Almighty have been marvellously displayed, both in mercy and judgment, and I look upon my present state of existence, a miracle of mercy. On the 22d of the Tenth month "the king of terrors" seemed with irresistible power to invade my habitation, but for a season he was repelled; during that part of the ensuing year which may be allotted me, may my looking be continually to Him, who hath the "keys of death and of hell,” the Shepherd of Israel, who neither sleeps by day, nor slumbers by night; but who is God over all, blessed for ever, to whom be glory for ever. Amen.

FIRST MONTH, 1788.

9. I set the Lord before me all the day long, that I might not offend against him.

10. The reverse to yesterday, particularly in

the latter part of the day; I was wanting in pa

tience.

28. A distressed and disturbed night; after an ́. absence of six months, I found an inclination to attend once more the forenoon meeting at Hartford; I went in much bowedness of spirit, but was enabled to sit until the close, not without some sense of the Lord, who healeth; and who formerly commanded the people to be still, and know that he was God.

30. I had more quiet and undisturbed reposethan for many months past, and was measurably thankful for the benefit; nevertheless, in the morning some unprofitable words were spoken ;** afterwards a pretty quiet and peaceable day, attended with some searchings of heart after Him, who "giveth his beloved, sleep."

31. This was a pretty peaceable and satis factory day throughout. "If we walk in the light" as God is light, we have peace one with another; thanks to the Prince of Peace: "if He giveth quietness, who then can make trouble?" and when He hideth his face, who then can behold him? whether it be done against a nation, or against a man only."

SECOND MONTH, 1788.

2. In the evening, these words were suggested, viz. Great is the power and goodness of God; for since the beginning of the world, men have

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not heard, nor perceived by the ear, neither hath the eye seen," "what he hath prepared for him, that waiteth for him.”

3. Was a day of disappointments and cross occurrences, which were not endured with due patience nor acquiescence in His will, without whom, not a sparrow falleth. If the Lord was set always before us it would have a great tendency to smooth the rugged paths of human life, and to render us more placid and agreeable to those with whom we may have to do.

4. I attended the forenoon meeting with some degree of bodily strength, but with little sense of the spirit which quickens.

13. I set out from Hartford in such debilitation, I seemed scarce likely to reach Tooleystreet in the body; but my life and strength was. wonderfully preserved by Him, who looseth the bands of death, and delivereth those who are ready to die.

16. This day, part of the last words of David the son of Jesse, were much in my remembrance, viz. "Although my house be not so with God; yet he hath made with me an everlasting covenant, ordered in all things and sure: for this is all my salvation, and all my desire, although he make it not to grow." The earthly tabernacle has been assailed with a long continued series of adversity; and for want of walking with a steady pace in the divine light of which I have long made a profession, my distressed spirit is far from that

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