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which was in danger, and bring my mind into a submissive frame. He made me willing to be esteemed nothing before others, so that his will might take place, and his name be glorified. He gave me at times a desire to depart and be with Christ, and made me willing even to suffer a painful death, if by that means I might show forth his love and power to a careless world.
I desire to call to remembrance his goodness when I was taken ill upon a journey, when he gave me songs in the night, and made my bed to feel as one of roses ; saying to my soul, “Be not afraid." After my return home, he not only relieved me from my illness, but caused light to arise concerning some of my most perplexing affairs, and overruled them in so wonderful a manner, that the end was gained I had in view. How mysterious are the ways of Providence! and how gracious hath he been to me this morning, in drawing forth my affections towards himself, and quickening my soul, when in a most lethargic state, bringing his mercies to remembrance, giving a desire to be more than ever devoted to his service, and enabling me to seek, with some degree of sincerity and fervency, those blessings he hath promised to give, and is willing to bestow. I have been led in particular to ask a lively operative faith, working by love; the sanctifying influences of the Holy Ghost, to purify the heart and life, and to seal the soul to the day of salvation; and to be delivered from a heart-sin lately discovered, which I thought had been subdued. O bless the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits ! What shall I render for the same? I will, in the name and strength of Jesus, set out afresh in the good ways of the Lord, determined to count all things but dross and dung for the excellency of the knowledge of my Redeemer. I will seek to know nothing but Christ, and him crucified. I will put my trust in him in time and for eternity. I will confess him before men, and count the reproach of Christ greater riches than all the treasures of Egypt; in short, I will give up soul, body, and spirit, unto him as his lawful property, to be disposed of as shall be most for his glory; to go where he will, to be what he will, to do what he will. Here, then, O Lord Jesus, I do most sincerely give myself away to thee, and cast my soul upon thee, believing thou art able to keep that which I commit unto thee; and that, when thou shalt appear, I shall also appear with thee in glory. I will endeavour to be without carefulness, and wait with patient expectation for the grace that shall be brought unto me at thy second coming. Do thou confirm my faith, increase my love, and cause me to abound in hope ; and thus may I bring forth much fruit unto thee, whereby thy name may be glorified. Hear this my earnest prayer, O my God, which I offer up in the all-prevailing name of Jesus. Let it be registered in heaven, and answered in thy time, to the joy of my heart; and thine shall be the praise for evermore. W. G.
Mr Balfour gives up his nomination to Lady Glenorchy's Chapel
Lady Glenorchy, thrown into renewed perplexity, actually leaves Scotland-Extracts from Diary-Letter from Lady Glenorchy to Mrs Walker_Decision of the Synod of Lothian and Tweeddale, respecting her Chapel in Edinburgh-Lady Glenorchy at Exeter_There the author first becomes acquainted with her-She visits ExmouthErects a Chapel there Goes to Plymouth Dock—Extracts from Diary, from December 1, to December 15, 1776_Letter from Lady Glenorchy to Lady Maxwell-Goes to Dorsetshire_Visits the Isle of Wight-Crosses over to Southampton-Arrives in London-Extracts from Diary, from January 27, to February 19, 1777_Meeting of the General Asseinbly of the Church of Scotland-Sets apart
day of prayer to God, to request, that he would overrule the Deci. sion of the General Assembly-Favourable Sentence of the General Assembly-Lady Glenorchy returns to Scotland—Letter from Lady Glenorchy to the Rev. Mr Jones-Extracts from Diary.
In prosecution of the design of Mr Balfour's settlement in Lady Glenorchy's Chapel, he, at the first meeting of the Presbytery of Dunblane, in whose bounds the parish of Lecropt is situated, tendered his resignation of the charge of his parish into the hands of the Presbytery, when, contrary to all expectation, and to general practice, they refused to receive it. This new and serious difficulty, which would have required a long and vexatious contest in the Church Courts to remove, determined him to give up his nomination to Lady Glenorchy's chapel. This threw Lady Glenorchy back into her former state of perplexity and distress, and led her not merely to resolve, but actually
to take measures for leaving Scotland. This appears from the following extract and letter :
October.-After frequent prayer to God for direction, I was led to determine upon leaving my own country for a season, perhaps for ever. The bad state of my health, which seemed partly owing to the trials I have met with, together with the opinion of the physicians that I should live in a warmer climate, made me see it to be my duty to go to the south of England, which I preferred to that of France, on account of having the benefit of the ordinances of the gospel. I earnestly begged of the Lord, that if his presence went not with me, I might not leave home; and that, if I did
he might make me a savour of Christ in every place. About the middle of October (1776) I set out with one man and one maid-servant, after selling off my cattle and horses, and leaving orders to sell my lands, when a purchaser should offer. I felt much heart satisfaction upon the road, from a sense of the eye of the Lord being upon me as a guide. To him I committed my way, desiring to settle wherever I might receive good, or be of use to his church. I had occasion to remark an answer to this prayer in several instances upon the road ; being undesignedly led to stop at places where some things were attempted for the good of souls. From Hawkstone, my friend, Miss Hill, accompanied me, and we travelled on to Bath and Wells, where we first met with who promised to meet me at Exeter, and accompany us to any place we fixed on, and to act as my chaplain.
Lady Glenorchy to Mrs Bailie Walker.
“ Hawkstone, 19th October. “My dear Madam,- I wrote you a few hasty lines from Carlisle, which I hope you received : Since then, I have continued my journey under the protection of the same gracious God, who hath never left me, but preserved and comforted me in all places and times, in sickness and health, and brought me safe to this place, where I found my kind friends all well; their souls, I trust, prospering, as well as their material part; and their hearts as much inclined as ever to glorify God with their bodies and spirits, which are his. My friend and I are to set out from this place on Wednesday for Bath, where I purpose staying till after the 30th of October, which is a day I wish to observe with my family, in imploring the direction of God how to proceed in the affairs of the chapel ; and also for his blessing upon every means used for the spread of the gospel in all places, in Scotland in particular, pleading, as in Psalm lxxxv. ver. 6.
That in thee may thy people joy,
Wilt thou not us revive ?
Do thy salvation give.
“ I hope to meet you, and many others that day, at a throne of
grace. “ We have not yet determined any thing farther than to go to Bath, and to pay a visit to Mrs Tudway at Wells, and there to consider where to go next. The Lord, I hope, will guide and lead us to the place where he would have us to be, and where he will employ us in his work, and refresh our souls with his presence. This is all I desire, if I know any thing of my own