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man's bouse, but we were about setting off, and declined the invitation in consequence.
"This meeting recompensed us well for our little pains in getting to it, and I trust some were helped on their way: however we felt relieved, and renewedly encouraged to trust in the unfailing arm of divine support. As we left the Island, many at their doors spoke kindly to U9, and our hearts and lips could affectionately say farewell.
The 11th and 13th we were at Alton and Staines, week-day meetings, and on the evening of the latter reached London, which seemed to be the proper port to re-ship for another voyage."
"We remained in the city over first day, attending Peel Meeting in the morning, and Gracechurch street in the afternoon, at each of which there was an affecting instance of mortality presented to our view: in the forenoon the remains of a young woman named 13oyle were taken into meeting, and at Gracechurch street those of Mary, the wife of Thomas Wagstaffe ; both seasons were low and mostly silent. In the evening we attended the Meeting for Ministers and Elders, for the Peel Monthly Meeting, which was held at the School and 'Workhouse, and proved a time of renewed Btrength; for though the communing was sad, I was thankful for the belief that our gracious Master approved it by joining Himself to the little company, and affording a portion of food which could be travelled in the strength of, for a little while, if not many days. . "We left London about one o'clock on second day, the 17th of the 9th mo..
"Wc were weary and exhausted upon reaching Sheffield, seventh day, but attended both meetings on first. That in the morning was a season of very close exercise, but I think owned with a good degree of the overshadowing of divine power, under which humbling influence there was a moving in the line of apprehended duty, so that relief of mind was obtained, and I hope a little profitable instruction sealed on some present. The number was very large, at both sittings, the latter heavy and laborious: we drank tea at William Fairbank's, where a season of solemn retirement ensued, and after supper at our lodgings, we were again sweetly invited to inward attention by the spreading of the holy wing; and ability to perform spiritual worship, was, I believe, renewedly experienced by several then assembled, to whom encouragement was administered still to maintain the warfare in faith: this was the crowning of a laborious day.
"'24th. Our kind friend, John Barlow, took E. P. and me in a chaise to Ackworth, where, with several other Friends we arrived to tea.— When the children were summoned to supper we went to look first at the girls, and here I
know not that I can do justice either to my feelings, or the sight my eyes were saluted with: the silence that prevailed, the solidity of the mistresses and children, and the sense of good melting into an humble admiration, only to be expressed in such language, as, the one half was not told me. The view of the boys afterwards was attended with similar feelings, and as our time was limited, it seemed best to desire the whole family might be collected. Several Friends from Sheffield and other places were present, and I believe all, in some measure, young and old, bowed under an awful sense of the divine presence, which indeed administered life, and excited thankful returns of praise to Him who is for ever worthy. This one season was worth a long journey, and the feeling of sweet peace while under the roof, accepted as a precious pledge to our minds of the Lord's gracious regard towards this extraordinary Institution, which is surely stamped with holy approbation, and will, I doubt not, be a blessing to future generations. I felt regret at being obliged to leave Ackworth so soon, but our prospects precluded a longer tarriance.
"We proceeded to York, in company with a large number of Friends, meeting with a cordial reception from William Tuke and his excellent wife. The Quarterly Select Meeting was held that evening, and largely attended from different parts of this county, as well as by strangers; dear Esther Tuke was beautifully concerned in the line of close doctrine in this sitting, and I ventured to drop the little fragment out of my small basket.
"4th day. The meeting for worship was very largo, and several living testimonies were borne: the meetings for discipline were held by adjournment till fifth day noon; and the last sitting especially was one of solemnity, wherein precious fellowship was renewed, and the concluding meeting in the afternoon might, 1 hope, be accounted one of worship. Several young ministers appeared sweetly in their Master's cause, and that mother in Israel, Esther Tuke, was also well engaged. After these offerings, M. Proud rose, and beautifully began what I expected would be an enlarged testimony, but after standing only about ten minutes in gospel authority, she closed in the very spot that one of the poorest sisters was dipped into, so the sentence remained, as it were, to be finished; and whether rightly concluded by me or not, is not my place to determine; but 1 trust the wing of heavenly love overshadowed some minds, and that this separating season was a fresh confirmation that gracious regard is continued to a church so abundantly favored as ours has been and still is.
"After parting with many Friends who had been made renewedly dear to us, we remained in this hospitable mansion (William Tuke's) no^ feeling ready to depart; and indeed my spirit has been afresh led to feel after the right way to move hence, and I hope a little light hath shown upon our proceeding on second day to Leeds, where a meeting is appointed to be held that afternoon.
"When this conclusion was come to, the weight of another matter, respecting which I had been feeling, so increased that it seemed best to mention the prospect of having a public meeting in this place, (York); W. and E. Tuke feelingly entered into the concern, saying they had expected it, which felt encouraging to my mind. The meeting with Friends on first day morning was a season of liberty honestly to labor, and at five o'clock a very large number of those not professing with us gave us their company, the house being nearly filled. A covering of solemnity early prevailed, under which there was an engagement to approach the throne of grace, and supplicate for ability acceptably to worship, after which dear Esther Tuke explained the doctrines of truth with great clearness and authority, and I trust there was an endeavor, upon the part of each of us, to move in the order of our respective courses, whereby the harmony of gospel labor was maintained; and through merciful assistance the meeting terminated well, leaving upon our minds a humbling sense of gracious and unmerited regard.
"We had a sweet season of retirement in the evening with the little flock at our comfortable quarters; they are a lovely set of girls, and favored with great advantages, in being under the superintendence of such friends as W. and E. Tuke.
"We paid a very interesting visit to our valuable friends, Lindley and Hannah Murray; he is in a debilitated state of health, having been for a long time unable to walk or stand upright, except at a few intervals; at present his speech is so affected that he only whispers; yet he looks well, and has a countenance that would cheer one, indicating where he | dwells, and what consolation' is the source of his support. He cannot now attend meetings, but rejoices to see his friends, as they well may to see him, for indeed it felt to me that the Son of Peace was there, and had sanctified those dispensations which would otherwise be hard to Dear. In a season of retirement after tea, we were favored to experience true Christian fellowship, and our intercourse was attended with feelings which are precious even in the retrospect."
(To be continued.)
Consider in how many ways Christian usefulness is promoted when love prevails among believers, and what sad effects follow when they act alone, and in a contrary spirit.
His hand the good man fastens on the skies, and bids earth roll, nor feels her idle whirl- Young.
THE MARK OF THE CHRISTIAN.
Every large religious society has representatives, to hinder or advance the Gospel of Christ, in every quarter of the Globe; a representative none the less real, and it may be, in some respects more effectual, because it is informal. Our sons or brothers go from us and tread the busy walks of Paris or London. They mingle in with the sallow swarms that pour through the streets of Calcutta and Smyrna. They land on the islands in the Gulf, or sail from point to point along the furthest South American shores, and wherever they go they carry an influence for or against Christianity. Members of a Christian Church now reside on a little island in the midst of the Atlantic sea. Beyond the lakes and mountains of the West, may be those who have come up to the house of God in your company; for there are those who have gone up in mine. "What impression did he leave?" I asked, of one who had followed in the track of a friend, in his travels in the far East. The answer was, "Every where, where he had been, was the mark of the Christian: in Syria, and Egypt, among the Mahomedans and the Jews, with whomsoever he held converse, he left the mark of the Christian." Christian character it a thing that always leaves its mark. B.
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"Every Scribe which is instructed into the kingdom of Heaven, is like a man that is a householder, that brings out of his treasury things new and old."
Things as high as the heavens above, things from the depths beneath, things pertaining to the phenomena of this world's interests and duties, relations and exercises—the bearings whereof tend to fix the destinies in a future state. "Such as we sow, such shall we reap," are words of deep meaning, and we realise their truth in every day life. It is, therefore, well for us to reflect, that here our work is to be done. Trials are permitted to prove our strength, discouragements allotted to test our faith, crosses presented to try our patience, and privations administered to teach us lessons of submission to ministrations adverse to our wishes, that we may learn self control and self sacrifice, willingly acquired in the dispensations of an all-wise Creator. To be well instructed in the things of the kingdom, and to become adepts in a school where lessons of obedience are taught, we have only to put ourselves under the care of him in whom are hid all the lich treasures of wisdom and understanding; all are invited: Come learn of me, no money is wanted, attention only is required; no distinctions are made, all are admitted and freely taught how to act their part well as individuals, and in this is comprised the highest interests of the whole mass of mankind, both in Church and State, and all the varied relations and communities that associate in carrying out the designs of the Author of our being.
"I am meek and lowly in heart," says this great instructor, "yet I possess an inexhaustible store of information, needful for intelligent beings, and most willingly will I impart to all, lessons adapted to their capacity, easy to be understood, and though simple, they expand and enlarge the perceptions; bringing at once before the mind's eye things past and present, things material and immaterial, things temporal and spiritual. So wisely classifying and arranging the great diversity with which we have to do, that a most beautiful order and harmony is preserved throughout.
A scribe notes down every item, is careful to keep accounts correctly,lets nothing slip lest loss be sustained; hence the old and the new are accessible, and he can bring them out in their turn with confidence; having been true to the trust reposed in him—having received and improved the instructions given him.
His kingdom is within, it is a heaven to him, for the King of kings sways his sceptre there— and in the things pertaining to it, he is well instructed—the treasury is all his own, but controlled by his counsellor that stands inspector, neither admitting nor giving out currency that has not his stamp upon it; all of this character whether new or old enriches the possessor, and though it passes often from one to another, and times innumerable, it still retains its excellency and its full value, while every one that receives or imparts it, is benefitted; thus adding to, instead of diminishing from, what has been given in trust, and is to be accounted for. "Thou oughtest to have put my money to the exchangers, then at my coming I should have received mine own with usury." Could this solemn truth be realized by all, there would be no idlers in the market-place.
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From henceforth I was easy as to everything any of that sort could say. And divers disputes I have had with many of them since, in other parts of the world ; but never began any controversy, being always on the defensive side; and rarely entered upon any point in question with any sect, till I knew the divine truth over all in my own mind, and my will subjected by it. And my next care usually was, not to provoke my opponent; for, by keeping him calm, I had his own understanding, and the measure of grace in him, for Truth, and my point, against the error he contended for; and my chief aim generally hath been, to gain upon people's understandings for their own good. But when a
man is put into a passion, he may be confounded, but not convinced: for passion is as a searching fire without light, it suspends the understanding, and obstructs the way to it, so that it cannot be gained upon, or informed: which ought to be the true aim, in all conferences and reasonings in matters of religion ; else all will end in vain and unprofitable jangling, contrary to the nature of the thing they reason about, and displease the Holy One, and end in trouble. But two or three times, at most, in the course of my life, and occasional occurrences in some low cases with meaner opponents, in too hasty engagements in my own strength, and off my full guard, my mind hath been ruffled; and though I have gained the point by force of argument, from the principle of reason only, and not from the principle of Divine Truth, yet have not had that peace and satisfaction of mind which is to be found in the virtue of Truth alone. And this has also taught me to be totally silent, and some times even insulted by ignorance, as if I had nothing to say; till the power and virtue of truth hath arisen in my mind, and then it hath never failed, by its own light and evidence, to support its own cause and justify me.
After this I had Divine peace and consolation in my mind for some time, and was mercifully favored with the living bread from above daily; and I went constantly to meetings of Friends, where, in a state of silence, my heart was frequently tendered and broken by the divine influence of the powerful Truth, to my unspeakable satisfaction ; a holy pleasure and enjoyment, which the.world or anything therein can never afford. And our meetings in the North in those days were frequently broken and melted in silence, as well as under a powerful and living ministry, by the word; which gave me occasion sometimes to remember another saying in my written piece before mentioned, (page 18 of the Journal, and 345 of the Intelligencer,) "He gave me joy which no tongue can express, and peace which passeth understanding." In the mean time my father began a little to relent, and admit some Friends to come to my chamber to see me; and he was brought by degrees into a pretty low state of mind: and one day, as I was sitting by him, he read in a Look entitled "Clerk's Lives," &c, (as I remember,) when I observed his tears to drop upon the book ; but he did not know that I perceived it, and after he had wiped his face, he turned toward me, and said, "I see there have been in former times, as great fools as you, to leave their friends and preferments in the world for their opinions in religion."
But he did not remain long in this condition, for the spirit of the world began to work another way. Some of his acquaintance discoursing with him concerning me, (as I was for a time frequently a subject of common conversation,) one day told him, "wo know your son very well; though young, he's no fool: you know the Quakers are an opulent people, arid their principles lead them to refuse the payment of tithes to the clergy; which together with other oppositions they meet with from one or other, occasions many lawsuits, and much business: and as they favor one another in all things, particularly in trade and the like, you'll see he'll have as much business soon, as any man in England; and will be well paid without question."
This temptation being skilfully adapted, took immediately with him, and entered very deep, the ill effects whereof quickly appeared. For he soon got from under that humble state of mind and tenderness he had in some degree experienced ; and though his countenance seemed very open and cheerful towards me, yet it was from that wrong ground and worldly view; which greatly loaded and oppressed my mind; for as I clearly perceived, the practice of the law, and to be frequently in the suits and contests of the world, would be inconsistent with divine peace in my own niiud, expose me to many temptations, and confine me so that I could not follow the Lord in that way wherein I understood he was leading me, and purposed to bring me forward; that is, not only in sanctification and justification, for my own salvation, but also in a public ministry of that holy and powerful word of life, by which the Lord of his own free will and grace, had called me: and to that end I knew was working in me qualifications suiting his own purpose thereby; and therefore my secret concern was, how to get rid of that great and dangerous obstruction, well knowing it would very much oppose my father's views, heightened as aforesaid, and I was loath to offend him ; but had no concern, prospect or doubt, then as to a way of living in the world. And, on the other hand, .to offend the Lord by neglect or disobedience was justly to forfeit his mercy and favor, and cancel the seal of the covenant of life, depending "on my part upon perseverance in moral righteousness, aud a faithful future obedience to his holy calling: for, where the word of God is given, and becomes a law of life, and an immediate director, disobedience in that case is of a high nature, and more immediately attended with the sensible and dreadful condemnation of this immortal law, thus minis-1 tered, than for the neglect of any moral command mediately administered to mankind, whilst yet in a natural and rational state only.
Duty to the Almighty, and the will and terrene views of my natural parent, becoming opposite, I remained not long in suspense what to do; for as through grace I had been enabled to take up the cross of Christ in confessing his holy name, in the dispensation of God to his people at that time; so by the same grace I was also enabled to undergo the displeasure of my
father, to close my eyes from all worldly views, and to stop my ears forever from hearkening to any preferments there, and being furnished with a full resolution in my mind to decline the practice of the law, though the only thing designed as a means of life; accordingly, the next persons who came to employ me in business of (hat kind, I refused in my father's presence, and told them in his hearing that I should not undertake business of that kind any more.
Upon this the load went off my mind; but from that time my father's countenance was changed towards me, and his behaviour quite another thing, often asking me with a supercilious brow how I expected to live in the world? as if he had feared I should have become a dead charge upon him.
This temptation being overcome, another quickly followed. The world had formed a false notion in those days, that our ministers, like their priests, were well paid by the Society for preaching, and generally grew rich by that means; they not knowing of any reasonable motive to such an undertaking, but lucre only; and some having told my father that such and such ministering Friend, whom he knew, went often abroad preaching, and as often brought home good sums of money, and that his son being ingenious would soon learn to preach among them, get money and become rich too; this seemed to take some hold, and he would now and then pass a joke upon me about it; but I being silent for some years after, it afforded him no great hopes of my living by it.
And this I think proper to remember here, that though I had no more dislike to priests than to others as men, yet, when any of them and I happened to come into the same company or place, they usually fell into some visible disorder and uneasiness, though I said nothing to occasion it, which I took, therefore, to arise from a prepossession and general prejudice and enmity against Friends, supposing them enemies to their persons, as to their errors.— And particularly one of them coming occasionally into a place where I was, all of a sudden, and in a confused manner, without any occasion given to lead to it, cried out, "you deny the resurrection." I replied that he had not heard me say anything on that subject. Then, said he, "the people you have joined yourself to deny it." I replied, "I did not understand they denied the resurrection, and that Christ, to prove the resurrection, adduced that scripture,* where it is written, ' but as touching the resurrection of the dead, have ye not read that which was spoken unto you by God, saying, I am the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob? God is not the God of the dead, but of the living.' If, then, Abraham, Isaac
* Exodus iii. 6. Mat. xxii. 31.
and Jacob had attained the resurrection of the dead in Christ's sense of the resurrection, and yet the body of those saints then remained in the earth, something else must he meant by the resurrection of the dead than terrene bodies."— Then said the priest, " I believe that Abraham, &c. did arise, not only to a state of righteousness in this life, but also to a state of glory in heaven after his death." Then said 1, " since he attained a first and second resurrection, he completed that state without the resurrection of this earthly body, for of a third resurrection we read not, and of a second by implication only," and so the matter ended. And from that time we became acquainted and intimate so long as I remained in the country.
Another time there came a priest into the company where 1 was, and I being silent, and the rest cheerful in their way, he being a wanton, airy man and a little in drink, observing me, cried out in a scoffing manner, "what have we got here, one of the holy brethren?" I returned, "What! art thou a teacher of the people, and scoffest at holiness 1 what canst thou teach, since thou art void of a qualification indispensably necessary to that work?" Upon which he became so uneasy and downcast, that he could no longer stay in the room, but went off troubled. And that night, being from home, I lodged with another priest, (at his house,) with whom I was acquainted, a sober, religious man, where I was kindly entertained, and had no occasion of offence, either by himself or any of his family.
Again, having been concerned in writing a settlement for a gentleman, upon the marriage of his daughter, and at his house in the country on that occasion; after the ceremony was over, and dinner upon the table, the priest said what they call yrace; wherein he gave thanks for their creation, redemption, sanctitication, &c, to which I paid no respect, keeping on my hat all the time, because it was a dead form; and that neither the priest himself nor any of his company seemed to have any real sense of what he said.
As soon as dinner was over, a fiddler began to play, and up started the priest, and taking one of the young women by the hand, fell a dancing very merrily. But I being in the room, and under heaviness smiic others of the company could not take all the liberty the occasion called for, in their way; and expecting I would not stay long, forebore. Nor could the priest make much of his dance, for the load upon my mind was to be left among them before I departed, and I only waited a proper occasion, which was soon offered, for the priest's dance going on heavily, he left it, and came to me where I was sitting quiet, and would have had me dance with one of the young women. Then I took the opportunity to tell him that I had observed his
grace, and what he said before the Almighty and the company so very lately, giving thanks for his creation, redemption, sanctitication, &c., and so very quickly after to fall into such behaviour, as did not consist with sanctification and redemption, denoted his very great insensibility of the import of his own words.
(To be continued.)
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To the youthful period of life no small importance is attached, for early impressions are lasting. A right beginning is a great advance towards a : right end, while one wrong step in the outset ; often opens the way to others not then seen, which end in sorrow and affliction. This was exemplified by one formerly, who, when warned of the evil he would one day commit, exclaimed, i " Is thy servant a dog that he should do this thing i" yet in aftertime committed the v*ry evil which before he so much abhorred. No one who disregards the true Guide can promise themselves how far astray they may be carried. I The young mind is tender and susceptible, hence the peculiar care which is necessary, that it may receive not wrong, but right impressions, and that it be kept within proper bounds. All, have something to do for themselves, to make their way prosperously through the world, and some things can never be done to so great advantage as in youth; among these are the folj lowing: to prosecute industriously some useful j employment; to institute and maintain selfgovernment; t.) observe the truth on all occa| sions; to respect the aged and the good; to | avoid the company of such as are of vain, idle, or loose habits, and conversation; to make ; choice of such books as are calculated to impart | useful knowledge, and to imbue the mind with the love of piety and virtue.; to manifest feelings of kindness and tenderness to all, even to the brute creation; and lastly, to shun no necessary sacrifice to keep a clear conscience, as this lies at the foundation of all moral and religious improvement and enjoyment.
How much interest is taken at the present day, in ascertaining the best methods of cultivating the earth, and causing it to produce abundantly, and how has the attention given to the subject been crowned with marked success. But how much more worthy of cultivation is the mind of man; is it not susceptible of improvement almost without limit? All well directed labor bestowed here ensures the most ample returns, and yet how much less care is thus bestowed than is given to the occupation pursued for a livelihood: this should not be. Solomon, one of the wisest of men, clearly saw the lasting benefit resulting to the youth from receiving correct impressions and forming good habits. Hence his memorable exhortation, " Train up a child in the way he