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blood began to be very uneasy, under the yoke not help myself; therefore, I will give up my. of retirement. And it began to groan for lib. self, my life, and all, into thy holy band; do erty. I was now about 16 years old, and the thy pleasure by me; thy judgments are just, for subtle enemy lay near me, and he did not want I have slighted thy sweet love, and have slain instruments; so, I was persuaded by reasoning the babe of grace," &c. And as I sank down with the flesh, the words of Satan, that, as I into death, and owned and submitted to the was young, I might take a little more pleasure, ljudgments of God, my heart was broken, which, and might serve God when I was older. So, I before, was hard ; and it pleased my merciful let go my exercise of watching and praying, Father to cause bis divine, sweet love to spring and left off retirement, and let my love go out up again in my hard, dry, and barren soul, as a to visible objects; and pride and vanity grew spring of living water; and the compassionate up again, and the divine, meek, sweet, living bowels of a tender Saviour my soul felt, and I spirit withdrew; and I could not fiad it again had a living hope raised in my mind, and yet when I pleased, although I did seek it some greater afflictions came after. So I may say by times, for I could bave been pleased with the experience, Strait is the gate and narrow is sweet comforts of his love, though I did not the way that leadeth to life.” And, indeed, I like to bear the daily cross, and because I was bave cause to believe that there are done but convinced it was the Quaker principle; for I such as are made willing to be stripped of all believed that people did enjoy the sweetness of that belong to self or the old man, and so be. divine love at their meetinys; I, therefore, come as a little child, that rightly or truly enter went sometimes a great way to a meeting to in at the strait gate ; and I do fiod by experiseek for divine refreshment there ; but to no'ence that "no vulturous eye, or venomous purpose, for I was like a dry stick that had no beast, or lofty lion's whelp, can look into or sap or virtue, unto wbich rain and sunshine, tread in this holy, parrow way," although it is summer and winter, were all alike. Thus it our king's highway. Oh, the longings of my was with me for about three years. Oh, the soul, that all might consider it. But to proceed: remembrance of that misspent time, and the Then I thought all was well, the worst is now tribulation that came on me afterwards for my over, and I am taken again into the favor of disobedience, is never to be forgotten by me. God; and so I was led into an elevation of joy, So, when I was about 19 years of age, it pleased but all in wardly in silence; and in a few days the Almighty to send his quickening spirit my soul was led into a wilderness, where I met again into my heart, and his light shined in my with such trials and temptations as it is beyond mind, and all my transgressions were set in my capacity to set forth, as it was; but when I order before me, and I was made deeply sensi- retired after the joy abated, to look for some ble of my great loss. Then, oh tben! the vials, solid comfort, my beloved, my soul's comforter, of the wrath of an offended Father were poured had withdrawn himself and was gone; and my out on the transgressing nature in my soul soul was left in a waste bowling wilderness, that had joined with it. Oh, then, I cried, where there was no way, no guide, no ligbt, " Woe is me, I am undone! I have slain the that I could see; but thick darkness, such as babe of grace! I have crucified the lord of might be felt, indeed; for the horror of it was life and glory to myself afresh ;" although I such that when it was erening I wished it was had not put him to open shame; for I had been morning, and when it was morning I wished preserved in moral honesty, in all respects, to for evening. The Lord was pear, but I knew that degree, that I durst not tell a lie or speak it not. He had allured my soul into the wil. an ill word; and I could be entrusted in any derness, and there he pleaded with me by his place with any thiog; and this would be in my fiery law and righteous judgments. The day of mind many times, that if I was not faithful in the Lord came upon me, which bnrnt as an the outward mammon, I sbould not be entrusted loven in my bosom, till all pride and vanity was with the heavenly treasure. But, notwith burnt up. All my former delights and joys standing all my righteousness, he whose eye were gode ; my old heavens were passed away, penetrates all hearts found me so guilty that I as a scroll that is rolled together; and my found there was no mercy for me. Oh, that earthly. heart did burn within me, as with fire, testimony I found to be very sure, viz. : “Ex. aod I had as much exercise in my mind of ancept your righteousness exceed that of the guish and horror, as I could bear for several scribes and pharisees, there is no admittance months, and not one drop of divine comfort. into the kingdom of heaven,” (nor to see the I could compare my heart to nothing, unless it favor of God). But after many days and was a fire coal or hit iron. No brokenness of nights of sorrow and great anguish, having so heart or tenderness o' spirit at all, though I soul to speak to, it came into my mind to give cried to God continually in the deep distress of up my soul into the hand of God; and I said, my soul, yet not one tear that I could issue “Oh, Lord, if I perish it shall be at the gates from my eyes could prevail. The days of sorof thy mercy, for if thou cast me to hell I can. row and pights of anguish that I went through

Bo tongue can utter, or heart perceive, which say in effect, “ I am of Paul, and I of Apollos, hath not gone through the like! I could have and I of Cephas, and I of Christ,” as if Christ wished I had been some other creature, that I was divided; but the Lord will not give " his might not have known such anguish and sor- glory to another, nor his praise to graven ror, for I thought all other creatures were in images.” So, as thou well observed, “the chief their prop:r place; but my troubles were much thing we ought to do is to make people sensible aggravated by the strong oppositions and temp. of their corruptions, and to direct them to the tations of Satan, who was very unwilling to word nigh, and to be good examples to them." loose his subject. So he raised all his forces,

(To be continued.) and mide use of all his armors which he had in the house; and I found him to be a strong in every man, for that brings to seek the honor

Honoring all men” is reaching that of God man, armed indeed; for he would not suffer of God. George Fox. me to enter into resignation, but would have me to look into the mysteries that appertain to

For , Frieudo Iatelligencer. salvation with an eye of carnal reason, and be The following is, I believe, a correct copy of cause I could not comprehend in my rational an origioal letter from that eminent minister of understanding, he caused me to question the the Gospel, Job Scott, now in my possession, truth of all things that are left on record in the which accidentally or providentially fell into the Seriptures of Truth; and would have persuaded hands of a careful person, who, though not in me to sit down in the Jews opinion concerning membership with us, has preserved it as a raluChrist; and many other baits and resting able relic.

A. J. P. places he laid before me, but my soul hungered

New York, 13th of 3d mo., 1790. after the true bread, the bread of life, that Dear Friend, Jas. Bringhurst :-Under a came from God out of heaven, (which Christ fresh sense of thy kindness divers ways, I think testified of in John vi., from the 27th verse to it my place to inform thee, that after leaving the end, which I had felt near, and my soul Byberry, I attended Monthly Meeting at had tasted of. Although the devil tormented Wrightstown; then had a meeting at Kingwood, me with his temptations, my soul could not bext at Joseph Moore's, then again at King. feed on them, but cried continually, “ Thy wood, last F'irst-day. Second-day, rode to presence, O Lord, or else I die. Oh, let me Hardwick; at meeting there on Third-day. feel thy saving arın, or else I perish.” And, Fourth day, rode to Mendon; at meeting there “O Lord, give me faith!” Thus was my on Fifth day, and yesterday rode here in tolesoul exercised in earnest supplication unto God, rable health. Had satisfaction and relief in pight and day, and yet I went about my out- the several meetings, and feel clear of the Jerward business, and made my complaint unto seys, Pennsylvania, and the more Southern nove but to God only. All my faith which I States.

I look back with awfulness on the had before, while I was in disobedience, proved path of my painful pilgrimage for the year past, like the building on a sandy foundation. All as well as the rest of my life; and though I am the comfort which I used to have in reading a poor frail worm of the dust, and have not the Scriptures was taken away, and I durst not always been so strictly watchful as I might have read for some time, because it added to con- been, yet I have a most unshaken and souldemnation. So I was left to depend upon God consolating evidence that holy help has always alone, who caused me to feel a little help, some been near, and many times marvellously so. times like a little glimmering of light under-Oh! may I ever adore that high and holy Name, Death my troubles, which caused some stay in which has again and again been my strong my mind; and if it had not been so, I had tower and rock of defence, and hence forward, fallen into despair; but I much desired to be as long as I live, walk worthy of the vocation brought through my troubles the right way, to which he has called me. I often marvelled and not to shake them off and get over then. at his making use of me at all in so great a I had not freedom to make known my condition work; but he will send by the hands of whom to any person, for I used to think if the Lord he will send, and has a right to bring his serdid not help me, in vain was the help of man. vants under the most indispensable necessity to And I have since seen that it was well I did go on his errauds. Had not this been the case, not, upon several accounts, for I might have i had oot left dear New England; but I staid come to a loss, if I had done so; for it was the there tilll durst stay po louger, and I now go will of the Lord to humble, and to burn up, thither again. Yea, gladly I go, feeling reand throw down, all that which might be im. lieved of a weight wbich I felt for some time puted to man or self; that I might know the before I left home, and repeatedly since, on the work or building of God to be raised froin the journey which I perhaps can convey but little foundation by his own power (where none of idea of by words. Had I been more perfectly man's buildings were) that all the glory might given up at some particular trying moments, be given to him alune, for we are very apt to and more thoroughly watchful and attentive to

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Truth's opening and preserving influence, they may be patiently persevering and not faint, believe it would have been to my additional fully believing a sure reward will attend their satisfaction now on my return; but, on the faithful labors, and in the end, however long, whole, I have great cause for thanksgiving and find a sure success. I don't koow that their praiso, having been abundantly and repeatedly prospects of much sudden success are sufficient confirmed that He that has called us is holy, to animate to any great exertions, but am apt to and not only calleth us to the perfecting of think their diligence and attention proceed holiness in his pure fear, but will infallibly rather from a deep felt sense of duty, and a abilitate thereunto as we look unto and rely trust that bread cast on the waters swims not rightly upon him. Many, it is true, are the away, but will be gathered, though it should conflicts and besetments which attend the race Dot be till after many days. As far as I now we run; but if ever we fail of preservation and see, I may go hence on Second-day, and per. victory, it is because the shield of the mighty haps pretty directly home. May I not be too is vilely cast away. Oh! my soul, trust in the much pleased with the thoughts of happiness Lord forever, for thou livingly kuowest that in in the delightful company of a much loved bim, and him alone, is never failing strength. wife and tender offspring, but rather seek

Great is the love I feel towards many in wisdom and ability rightly to purture and train your city and country. Mention me to such as these last in a way the most favorable toward thou thinkest proper, not forgetting thy dear their receiving and submitting in early life to wife and family, thy brother Joseph and af the heart bumbling power of truth. This is the flicted sister, if living, and particularly my two desire of my heart at this time on their account. Newport friends at thy son John's. I did intend to have seen them again, but could not well see how to do it. Let them be assured it

I have loved to read the Scriptures from my was not owing to want of good-will; no, truly childhood up to the present hour. Some of the I feel more than a little of that to them both, earliest religious impressions that memory can and wish their substantial improvement and recall, accompanied ihe perusal of the experisettlement in the best things; also I desire to ence of the righteous, that is there recorded. hear from them as frequently as may be con- I recur now to an incident connected with my venient. I found dear Isaac Everett here; he earliest religious convictions, so memorable to is here now, but I believe has some thought of

me, that it will be lasting as life itself, in which being at Spring Meeting. He is pretty well, my mind in the infancy of experience was led and bravely relieved in mind, having left New to feel and admire the truth

of some of these England with peace in his own bosom, the re. Scripture declarations. I had learned to repeat ward of faithful attention to divine manifesta- that beautiful prayer which Jesus taught his tion.

disciples, and often to open my lips with the I acknowledge thy kindness in sending thy language, “ Our Father who art in heaven." son and lad with my man to Byberry, and in in the spirit of inquiry natural to children, I the offer of Jonathan's going on with me. was led on one of those occasions of retirethought it not best to detain hip, though his ment, that I had been taught was necessary to kind willingness to accompany me was truly effectual prayer, to put this question to myself: acceptable. I wish his everlasting welfare, as What good can it do me to repeat these words, also that of all the rest of the children, and or how shall I be benefitted by the use of this servants too; and desire my love and good will prayer? I was seeking after truth, and in the to be mentioned to all the servants, male and silence that followed the inquiry, my underfemale, black and white. They bave all souls standing was addressed by a language like this: immortal as our own, and must be happy or The value of thy prayer depends upon the miserable forever, therefore ought to be seri. spirit in which it is nade. Oh, the impressions ously engaged to love God and serve him faith of that hour have followed me through life, and fully all the days of their lives.

I shall carry the remembrance thereof with me If any letters have come to thy hand for me, to the grave; and I wish I could carry to I desire thee to be so kind as to forward them others the convictions I have received myself, back to me, and shall be glad of a line from that however much we may read the Scriptures, thee. Please to mention my love to our dear or repeat the declarations of good men that we women friends from Ireland; in whose hands find there rccorded, they can be of no value to that the Lord's work may prosper, is the sin us, only as we are brought into a state of mind cere desire of thy and their sincere friend,

in which we can make these declarations our JOB SCOTT.

Then only can we say with truth, "Our Your friends attending Congress* are atten. Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy give to thạ trust with them reposed. I hope name; thy kingdom come, thy will be done on

* On the subject of slavery, as appears in his pub- earth, as it is done in heaven.”---Extract from lished letter of same date to his wife.

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fellow boarders at Thame school, and the third THOMAS ELLWOOD.

a country gentleman with whom I had long (Continued from page 534.)

been very familiar. When they were come up to The new spiritual birth and awakened per me, they all saluted me after the usual manner, ceptions that now arose in his soul brought with putting off their hats and bowing, saying, · Your tuen both comfort and true earnestness of de humble servant,'sir, expecting, no doubt, in resire to be conformed to the will of God in all turn, the same from me. But when they saw things. Conficts and trials succeeded,' but me stand still, not moving my cap nor bowiog strength was given adequate to the necessity on my knee in a way of copyee to them, they were every occasion. An enlightened conscience, amazed, and looked first one upon another, then pointing in the gospel to the words of the Lord upon me, and then one upon another again for Jesus Himself, made it clear to him that the a while, without a word speaking. At length Friends were right in maintaining that the fol- the surgeon, a brisk young man, who stood nearlower of Christ must live a life of truthfulness est to me, clapping his hand in a fawiliar way --- must make it the great object of his life to upon my shoulder, and smiling on me said, be true to God, true to his fellow-man, and true What, "Tom! a Quaker?' to which I readily to the convictions of his own conscience in all and cheerfully answered, “Yes, a Quaker.' things; that God required from His children And as the words passed out of my mouth, I and would help them io maintain truth in heart, felt joy springing in my heart; for I rejoiced in word, and in deed ; and that no one who is that I had not been drawn out by them into any not governed by the Spirit of Truth and truth- compliance; and that I had strength and boldfulness, is pleasing God and serving Him aright. ness given me to confess myself to be one of Then came the pinch in the application of this that despised people." strict truthfulness to the current manners, popu In that age men when dressed generally wore

lar language, and complimentary titles which their hats in the house as well as out of doors, - prevailed in the world. The Friends had taken only removiog them on occasions of ceremony.

a decided stand against whatever they deemed Young Ellwood had not only hats and caps untruthful in each of these, and young Ellwood, taken from him, one after another, till all he after examining every point, believed in his possessed were gone, but also every means of heart that the stand they had made was a right procuring others. To this his father had reone; and thus believing, he acted upon it. So course in order to put it out of his power ever also he united with their views in giving up to appear covered in his presence-- when he those things that he regarded as springing from found that other and most cruel treatment which a degree of human pride and vanity that should he had recourse to was unavailing. But do or not be countenanced. Expensive personal deco say what he would to his son, he found him ration was discarded; gold rings, gold lace, and immovable in this, though he still acted all such ornaments were cast off, and in lan- towards him with filial deference in everything, guage and manners the Quaker mode of using but what appeared to him as encroaching on po merely complimentary titles was adopted by the honor due to God. The courage manifesthim.

ed in his earlier days in disarming the ruffian The ceremonious uncovering of the head and who attacked his father's carriage, was not dow bowing of the knee were seriously regarded by exercised in defending himself; that would the Friends as marks of veneration that should have been ins possible, without exasperating one not be offered to any mortal, but should be con- whom he most gladly would, if in conscience sidered as due to God alone, and observed in be could, have appeased. All his courage was prayerful approacbes to Him. We cannot won now exercised in patient endurance of personal der that, viewiog these observances in this light, abuse from his father, having entered the serno earthly consideration could induce them to vice, and under the teaching of Him who, comply with the fashionable usages. Io these “ when he was reviled, reviled not again.” respects, also, Ellwood united with and adopted Several months followed without in any dethe principles and practice of the Quakers. He gree reconciling the father to the changes that thus describes meeting with some of his former had taken place in the son, when to the joy of acquaintances after he had made that change, the latter ibeir friends from Chalfont came to on an occasion when sent by his father to Ox- pay them a visit at Crowell; which Ellwood ford, with a massage to his brother magistrates speaks of thus :who sat on the bench during the sessions : " At length it pleased the Lord to move Isaac

“I went directly to the ball where the ses- Penington and his wife to make a visit to my sions were held, and had been but a very liitle father, and see how it fared with me: and very while there before a knot of my old acquaint welcome they were to me, whatever thoy were ances e-pying me, came to me. One of these to him, to whom I doubt not they would have was a scholar in his gown, another a surgeon of been more welcome had it not been for me. that city (Oxford), both my schoolfellows and They tarried with us all night, and much dis.

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course they had with my father, both about the Sabbath question that prevailed between the principles of Truth in general, and in relation Puritan and the Quaker of the seventeeth cento me in particular, which I was not privy to; tury. We find nearly the same difference prebut one thing which I afterwards heard of was vailing between the Presbyterians and the this : when my father and we were at their Friends of our own time, though it may be the house some months before, Mary Penington in chasm between the two in this day is scarcely some discourse there had told him how hardly so wide as formerly. Perhaps the Presbyterians her husband's father, Alderman Penington, had do not now regard the Sunday as occupying dealt with him about his hat; which my father, exactly the same ground as the Jewish Sabbath. little then thinking that it would, and so soon The Friends, however, still hold that the first too, be his own case, did very much censure the day of the week, though most necessary as a Alderman for. He spared not liberally to blame day of rest from usual labor, has no Christian him for it; wondering that so wise a man as be warrant for being kept as the Jews were orderwas should take notice of so trivial a thing ased to keep their Sabbath. They believe that the taking off or keeping op of a hat. This both the corporal and mental constitution of gave her a handle to take bold of him by. Aod man require such rest. They also believe that haviag had an ancient acquaintance with him, on such a day of repose from toil, religious and he having always had a high opinion of worship and religious instruction should be esand respect for her, she, who was a woman of pecially attended to. But they do not hold great wisdom, of ready speech, and of a well that the first day of the week is any more holy, resolved spirit, did press so close upon him in the Jewish sense, than any other day. with this home argument, that he was utterly The occasion above alluded to occurred in at a loss how to defend himself.

1660, a few weeks prior to the restoration of " After dinner next day, when they were Charles the Second. " I bad been at Reading." ready to return home, she desired of my father Ellwond says, “aud set out from thence on the that, since my company was so little acceptable first day of the week, in the morning, intending to bim, he would give me leave to go and spend to reach (as in point of time, I well might) to some time with them, where I should be sure Isaac Penington's, where the meeting was to of a welcome. He was very unwilling I should be that day; but when I came to Maidenhead, go, and made many objections, all which sbe I was stopped by the watchman laging hold on removed so clearly by ber answers, that, not the horse's bridle, and telling me I must go judging what further excuse to allege, he at with him to the constable for travelling on length left it to me, and I soon turned the scale Sunday. Accordingly I suffered him to lead for going.

my horse to the constable's door. When we “ We were come to the coach side before this got there, the constable told me I must go bewas concluded on, and I was ready to step in, fore the warden, who was the chief offieer of when one of my sisters privately put my father the town ; and he bid the watchman bring me in mind that I had no hat op. That somewhat on, himself walking before. startled him, for he did not think it fit that I "' Being come to the warden's door, the conshould go from home so far, and to stay abroid, stable knocked, and desired to speak with Mr. without a hat. Wherefore he whispered her to Warden. He thereupon quickly coming to the fetch me a hat, and he en'ertained them with door, the constable said : Sir, I have brought a some discourse in the meantime.

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man here to you, whom the watch took riding as he saw the hat coming he would not stay till through the town. The warden began to exit came, lest I should put it on before him; amine me, asking whence I came, and wbither therefore, breaking off the discourse, he abrupt- I was going. I told bim I came from Reading, ly took his leave of them.

and was going to Chalfont. He asked why I “ I had not one penny of money about me, travelled on that day. I told him I did not nor indeed elsewbere; for my father as soon as know it would give offenee to ride or to walk he saw that I would be a Quaker, took from me on that day, so long as I did not drive any carboth what money I bad, and everything else of riage or horses laden with burdens. Why,' value that would have made money—as silver said he, if your business was urgent, did you buttons, rings, etc., pretending that he would bot take a pass from the mayor of Reading?' keep them for me till I came to myself again. . Because,' I replied, “I did not know por think But as I had no money, being among my I should bave needed one. Well,' said he, friends, I had no need of any, nor ever honed 'I will not talk with you dow-it is time to go after it; though upon one particular occasion I to church—but I will examine you further bad like to have wanted it."

anon;' aud, turning to the constable, Hare That occasion is worth noting for more than him to an inn, and bring bim before me after its quaint details. It brings before us one of dinner.' the characteristic enactments of the Common. " The oaming of an ind put me in mind that wealtb; suggesting the different views on the l such public houses were places of expense, and

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