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utterly unworthy to unite himself to heavenly hopes, and Christian confidences, is incomprehensible. What manifest nobility of character must be possessed by that female, whose faithless lover has the courage to solicit her to plead the cause of her rival, and her own undoing! But her unhappiness cannot be of long du ration. The hope of the Christian will triumph over the disappointment of the woman. Where there is no substantial foundation for regret, misery will pass away beneath the awaking eye of reason. How much humiliation must be felt by her who finds, that she has thrown away the treasure of her affections on one incapable of valuing the gift, and not anxious to receive it! It is long since I have been interested for any person in the same degree as I now am interested for Camilla. There has been no departure from womanly delicacy in her conduct. She was not "won, unsought." By his own confession, Aubertin felt no

unwillingness, in his earlier years, to fulfil the engagement to which the honour of his father was pledged. He probably called her affection into being by exhibitions of his own tenderness. And wherefore has he "forsaken his first love?” He is the dupe of that organ which casts more temptations round man than any other; he is the slave of the eye.

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I have seen Camilla. Not all the interest with which a knowledge of her peculiar situation had inspired me, could prevent my acquiescence in the assertion of Hartley Aubertin; she is plain. Her complexion is inanimate, of a dark, grave brown, and the apparent smoothness of its surface does not compensate for its inattractive tameness. Her eye is dark, and its expression, without being actually melancholy, is immutably calm. There is no indication of any extra

ordinary feeling; ;-in looking at her, I feel myself compelled to value the sacrifice she has made, infinitely less than I should have done, if it had been yielded by a woman who evinced deeper sen. sibility.- Yet there is an air of sweet feminine gentleness in her aspect, which softens the severity of her features; and there are two or three lines in her face as critically classical as the finest model of the antique. The total absence of expression. and yet, how can I call that face inexpressive, in which I read a soul capable of inflexibly adhering to its purposes, and enduring the consequences with unyielding firmness?

Her manner - it is not repulsive, but, paradoxical as the assertion may appear, it repels. There is an evident retirement into self, which renders her almost unapproachable. She converses easily and without apparent effort; but occa sionally, I detected an air of abstraction from which she struggled to escape;

and I found the effort to be invariably successful. She is therefore disciplined to the most perfect self-control. Her voice is exquisite," an excellent thing in woman" and some of its touching cadences reveal a tale of suffering and patience, which softens the heart towards her precisely in the same degree, as her calmness of deportment excites indifference. Thus, these conflicting sentiments are held in equilibrium; and one may decide on her character without danger of being misled by partiality or prejudice.

I scrutinised her deportment to Aubertin with anxiety. There is nothing to condemn. There is no air of offended dignity-of wounded feeling of outraged affection. She exhibits precisely that degree of kindness which may naturally be expected to result from constant juxta-position. His parents are virtually hers; she has shared their tenderness with him, and she repays it by

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filial affection. If there is any singu larity on this point, it is an avoidance of addressing him particularly,—a something indicative of a wish to be where he is not. Far from coveting the interest attached to the character of a heartbroken woman, she evinces the most unsubdued resolution of acting and doing exactly as if she were in no extraordinary position.

The people around all appear in possession of the fact, that there was an engagement between Mr. Hartley Aubertin and Miss Hastings; and that it has been dissolved is ascertained by the gentleman's being on the point of marriage with another lady. The desire of Mr. Aubertin that Camilla. should remain here until after the nuptials, is not judicious. I have been present at two or three morning visitations, in which the curiosity of the inflicters was scarcely

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